An amazing feeling....

Today, Christmas Eve 2014, is a day I will most certainly never forget. Instead, it should be admired, respected, and always celebrated. The sensation is indescribable in its essence, but knowing I could be a father is, at least, paralyzing..

What do you say? How do you ensure comfort, love , and compassion to the person you just became completely committed to for the rest of your life?

Do you soul search, find the indescrepencies that have made the relationship rough? It's certainly a two-sided ordeal, I've found it's important to view the angle of all involved, regardless of self-interest.

For me, and the way I feel now, it's impossible to think the opportunity to bring a life into this world could surpass my tangibility. It feels so real, definite, and certainly very expected. The lack of desire for this day was never lacking. 

There's no better word for what I feel now; content. Hopefully, I can share that sensation with the person I love most......

My first night alone.

It's been a while since I've had the house to myself. Brandie's Mom, Linda, is staying with us at the house. It's actually been very refreshing to have her, and I'm compelled to say, Brandie is too. It's a win-win deal for both us, and you might be asking "Kiel, how is that possible?". Well, I get the most introspective and informative opinion in conversations about her daughter, and the kicker: a sidekick is always handy when we can say she's wrong. Not my end game, but worth mentioning..

So anyway, back to the reason I wanted to write this note. I was standing in the kitchen, just thinking to myself and I realized that I felt like an internet meme I've seen so many times. There are lots of them, but these stand out. All of the ones I've seen have an animal doing an action that would generally considered human. There is a word for this, but I don't know it and I'm being lazy. I couldn't even tell you which one most relates to me tonight, but the feeling of quiet is emphasized by ten tonight. 

Hope these make you laugh as much as they summarize my feelings right now.

San Diego Trip 2014

9:53AM - 03/13/2014

So I'm currently standing in front of a nail salon and a women's clothing store dubiously named Brown Eyed Girlz. Assigned the task to pick up Brandie and her mother's dress for the trip. You're probably thinking how lucky I am, but trust me, it's awkward. Let's get this party started and hit the road.

8:41PM - 03/13

We made it safely and drove like the wind to get here. The drive wasn't bad, but of course you always have those couple of jerks who refuse to conform to standard road operating procedure. We're missing a couple people that are still on the road, but the walk to Ralph's scores some brew.

I'm standing on the balcony of the floor we practically own. With about 10-15 people staying in most of the rooms we're sure to be a hit with the old folks in 256..

San Diego is such a beautiful place.

11:18AM - 03/14

I'm sitting in the room by myself this morning. We just got back from breakfast and Brandie is out getting her hair and makeup done for the wedding tonight. I've got Frank Sinatra's "It was a Very Good Year" playing and the door is open on the balcony. Frankly, no pun intended, I really need to take more vacations to places like this. You really can't ask for a better setting than what San Diego proudly provides. 

Yesterday we took a drive out to Mt. Woodson Golf Club. All of the guys played and I casually just came along for the ride. Again, and I'm embarrassed to keep saying it, but holy cow this place is awesome.